Rambling 16 hours and 30 minutes before my results

I went for dinner with a couple who were so hilarious and loving tonight. At first, I thought it would be so awkward because of my 'Single-party of one' status but they were so welcoming. I swear these two love each other so much that you cannot, even for a millisecond, think they can possibly not love you. Their love is overflowing #truestory. 

We spoke of our pet peeves, our joys, our concerns, our fears, our worlds and I didn't feel less smarter than them at all because the root of the conversation was us. The conversation that took place was from our own point of views rather than from what the media, the school or just society dictates. I didn't feel like I repeated myself about certain issues or better still, I didn't feel like I echoed anyone else. I felt like an interesting individual and I thought of both of them in the same way too.

I get to know my results for my course at 4.30pm tomorrow and I am a little worried to be honest but the God in me is saying I am going to be fine no matter what the outcome is. Normally (since last year really), I could just close my eyes and see the expression I would have after obtaining the result: like if the results were going to be good; I would see myself smiling or there will be certain positive words. But today, I see nothing. In fact, I don't want to see any images because I know I won't believe them. If its a happy face, I think I will probably find some other explanation for it and if its a crying face, I will explain it away again so yup here I am...'an unknowing fool' because I choose not to know.What I do know is that the Lord I know and serve (well mostly try to serve) is faithful in all regards and He will continue to lead me by green pastures AND quiet waters AND make me surefooted as the deer. Beyond and during tomorrow, He Is. I am in no place to doubt His provision for my life. 

Father Almighty. You are Lord of heaven and earth. You can move mountains and change hearts of kings. You love us and sacrificed Your Son for us. Today, I come  to you, a sinner, who manages time pretty badly, who doesn't regularly seek you and sometimes holds an unforgiving heart. You know these things about me yet you love me and have made me righteous and worthy to come to You in Your Son's name.  Thank you for sustaining me all these days of my life. Today I would like to pray for my results: that my parents  and I will be happy tomorrow after I receive and tell them my results Father. Lord, I would like to celebrate and be joyful tomorrow so I seek Your mercy upon me Father. I seek Your favour upon my life. I seek your reassurance and a peace that surpasses all my understanding as I leave my concerns in Your hands. I am in awe of you Father. I lift Your Holy Name above my fears, above all things. I will raise my hands and praise Your Mighty Name because You are good. In Jesus' Name I pray..Amen!!

Ok I am crashing now...the hubby of the lovely couple made a quiche and chocolate and custard pudding so I am crashing after a very high 'high' from the chocolate so will have to leave it here for now

Toodles my lovelies

Remember owe nothing to each other except to love. Rom 13-8.

P.S.. I had not known that my ramblings would end up as a prayer but hey. He is a God after our own hearts. He takes us to the heart of the matter even when we haven't a clue what we will find there, He knows.

#in2010

I WILL NOT BE NAIVE...
to think that this year will be a bed of roses;
to think that my slate will always be spick and span;
to think that everything will flow smoothly in the direction I want them to go;
to believe that people will not die or lie;
to think my pockets will be filled to overflowing with pounds,US dollars, kwacha whatever the currency;
to think that I will not have to fight or struggle to get noticed or to notice what I must;
to thiink that I will not have difficulty focussing, planning and acting;
to think that there will be no betrayal and pain, harshness and cruelty or shame
or to realise that some desires will once again be put under 'pending'...
Lord, I know that this world belongs to the most devious of thieves and he has come that he may steal, kill and destroy and he will woo some people over as he did last year..

But Lord I know, You are faithful and those who seek You with their hearts will find You and live life to the fullest, while HERE on this very earth and BEYOND the grave!
I know You wake me up to new opportunities and chances each day!
I know that as long as You are there, there is a REASON to hope whether we think we are too far gone or the rest of our world thinks that!
Lord I know, that You line the paths we struggle on with sufficient grace and strength so we can persevere in prayer, love, marriage, families, fidelity,and righteousness!
Lord I know, You heal scars, wipe away tears, and comfort all those who call on You Abba Father!
I know that You keep us out of harm's way even when we don't recognise the extent of it!
I know that You know my name and will NEVER forsake me!
I know that You heal and You give rest....

I know what the devil can do, oh I am not naive!
But I also know Who my Father IS!!!

because in 2009..I prayed for the following:
the element of surprise

tHank YOU LoRd.

You heard our prayers and You knew what to do with them. You heard them when the words were stuck in our throats, rolling down our cheeks and when we were in silence. You are so faithful Lord. I have learnt that no matter what the circumstance is, all the facts or no facts at all, You are Victorious over them all. I battled with optimism in my own head because I refused to look at it as a small thing. I saw how magnanimous it truly was and I struggled to put a smile on my face. Daniel in the lions den was a big thing. Curing someone from a bleeding problem is a big deal. Knowing a person you meet at the well in and out is so amazing Lord. I am quite ashamed of the fear I had in the face of the latest battle. Yet, in spite of it, you grew my faith and wisdom. Once I prayed for something, i comforted myself saying it was a small thing, I said, God, You can fix it because it is small. Yet, it was such a big deal, and I underestimated it. It seems the smaller I view things, the smaller my hope and faith are I think. I made it look small so I could cope I suppose. Now I have seen Your hand excel in the large things...I will believe in you in the face of all my realities. Cancer, AIDS, Diabetes, Job hunting, Mortality, Joy, Sadness, Phobias, Child Birth, Operations, Injuries, Plane Crashes, Blindness, Deafness, Sex, MArriage, Divorce, Peace, Love are all big things BUT Your word and Your Aid is greater than all these. I will never belittle anything again to feel bettr when I hope. Your deeds surpass all my understanding. I believe in You. Your provision is Absolute Lord. I am so grateful and humbled. I will trust you with my all. Thank you Abba Father. Amen