There can be no intimacy without love and no love without God so here goes, with a humbled, broken and repentant heart, here is my proposal....
Lord, on New Years Eve of 2006, You invited me to sit at Your table, to partake of Your body and blood given up for me. I accepted. Today, I invite You to sit at mine. This is my body and this really is my blood, this is me. You are most patient and kind. You have never taken anything from me just because 'You envied me'. Even though I have nothing of worth that You could possibly envy, still You never boast about it and are never proud nor haughty. When You challenge me or inspire, it is for my own good and not self-seeking. You are not easily angered nor hold grudges against me. You rejoice when I begin to know and understand truth. You always protect me, always trusting me (giving me freewill and all), always hope (You have no need to hope because You are the Hope), always persevering.....I want to be intimate with you. I want You to be all that is within me. I request Your Divine Presence in everything I do. I would like Your company wherever I go. I want to tell and show You everything that is going on with me. I never want to hide a thing! I trust You so much and You can overcome all my fears. I am over the age of consent and I am entering this relationship knowingly (Yes I have read the Bible, I have felt Your Holy Spirit) so I get who You are but I want to know more about You for as long as I shall live...(Because of Your Son JC, I know this means forever <3). I don't deserve You but here we are today...You amaze me!
If I have no love for myself, I cannot have love for others. I am commanded to love others as I love myself (Matth 22.39). So the platform from which I will launch 'my reformed and transformed spirit' is that of love. (From today there is no 'unconditional love', no 'real love' because I know that any love which is other than that, is not love at all).
