SSS

(SSS=toned down version of triple x) yes i don't do explicit lyrics/behaviour ..those are relics of my past i guess but i have battles, Lord do I have battles! sometimes my mind is like a gutter, full of ignoble; nonvirtuous?, unholy, unkind, unloving, ungracious, lustful thoughts--> that's my confession, and I NEED PRAYER!

ANYWAY, this past MONTH i have learnt lot which has opened the door to understanding quite a few things....

i get how you can be lonely enough that you can enter the worst brutal relationship just to feel something....

i get how pressing a weapon to your temple in your imagination can easily become a reality....

i get how quickly one's mood swings and noone can reset it to normal especially when you desperately need to be rational...

i know that watching a child bruise is so painful that your salty tears actually begin to sear through your face and they become your battle wounds reminding you of a time when you fought despair in your weakness AND WON!

i know that if you think your friend should move on from a bad relationship you should say so...like a person at a red traffic light, she doesn't have to stop but it will sure make the world a better place if she did!

i can go for more than a week without speaking to bestie without feeling liking crying...

I GAVE UP CHOCOLATE for LENT AND IT SEEMS THERE IS NO SUBSTITUTE THAT CAN RELEASE ENDORPHINS AS WELL AS A GOOD KITKAT.....well i can think of a few close substitutes but hey...(i won't let Talkoum hear my heretic thoughts on this one) so I know what it feels like to pray some desires away...to basically implore God to make your longing for a vice die away. NOT EVEN HOT CHOCOLATE! I am trying not to renege on my promise to you Lord, and it is BO HARD but I know with You, I can, it is all possible...whew.

IT DOESN'T HELP THAT I AM UNDER IMMENSE PRESSURE...in school of course ;D but yes i will be okay. I can't Tweet it and smoking cigarettes it away...

kisses and cuddles (Kcees)

Tendi