Who Am I?

Mark 4:14-20The farmer sows the word.  

Some people are like seed along the path, where the word is sown. As soon as they hear it, Satan comes and takes away the word that was sown in them.  From my experience, satan came like a thief and snatched away the word from me just like that (sometimes with force and sometimes sneakingly). And you may not realise it until you have walked a distance that you never actually got the chance to meditate on the word that you heard. You can't remember the words which should have given you comfort when you were troubled; you can't remember the hymns that you had just sung to praise God with...Or sometimes, Satan comes in a way that shakes you vigorously and like that its gone! He can can come as a sneaky thought and remind you of a circumstance and say ''pssh that word won't do nothing for your circumstance haha'', and so you let the word go. Satan can even come in the form of someone who contradicts the word and doesn't encourage you to be obedient to it but ridicules it in your face. Before you get home after hearing the word, it will feel like you had never left and nothing has changed. 
 
Others, like seed sown on rocky places, hear the word and at once receive it with joy.  But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away.  Its extremely exciting to hear positive and uplifting words from the Bible, it is great when they speak of prosperity and rewards and eternity..WOW! What happens when you leave the church and you are no longer 'just a hearer' of the word but you must become 'a doer of the word'. All that preaching about Daniel (in the lion's den) or Abednego (thrown in the fire) and Jesus (whipped, beaten and on the cross), now you have to live like one prepared to go through the fire using the Word for your protection. AAAAAH!!! Hence the falling away and adhering to quick fixes~ going along with the crowd and not standing firm in God's promises on your life because you don't want to appear foolish or too Jesus-centric.

Still others, like seed sown among thorns, hear the word;  but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful. It is so difficult to act like you are living in a bubble where nothing can attack you or entice you---> but its harder when you aren't acting and you absolutely believe that God is fighting all your battles, all that you have belongs to Him because temptation manifests itself in many ways and almost diminishes your resolve to hold on to the word....it becomes too difficult to believe when your heart and mind are burdened with worries; or you can suddenly afford all these things that seem to ease your strife so why not pursue them rather than tithing or getting up every morning.....

Others, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop—some thirty, some sixty, some a hundred times what was sown.”Wouldn't it be nice...

Mark 4:14-20