Foony Thing.....

This morning, I felt a deep need to pray for my better half and I wrote a reminder in my journal

I did nothing about it until this evening after having a conversation with my friend about a guy I fancied whom I feel would never be my type because we come from such different backgrounds. He hustles basically and his academic career probably ended at A levels, by choice I presume, because his father is the Chairman of He-BETTER-GET-HIS-BEHIND-BACK-TO-SCHOOL so really it would have been his choice right? Here I am secretly fostering a plan to go do a PhD afterward. How will we work around that? Yes I jumped plenty of steps...but I am a planner like that. I can pretend not to care and wing it and flirt with him like a house on fire but that will do me no good because that's my heart on the line so meThinks choose now, decide now whether to feel or not to feel past friendship...but these feelings are working overtime I tell you. It seems my mind took an extra long lunch break too (which is why I am laying here, typing, instead of studying COMPACTNESS, OPEN SETS, BLAH BLAH)

Anyway, while speaking to my good friend, I mentioned that I liked this guy so much that one day, I slept at one in the afternoon just to get him off my brain...of course i met him in my dreams..aaagh. Earlier today,I called my cousin and "him" happened to be in the room too (MIND OUT OF GUTTER-they were in an office with 5-10 other people present, okay maybe 2-6 people) so she matchmakerly invited him into the conversation on loudspeaker!!! And 'the fool' (term of endearment) says 'Hesi baby' and i full-on giggled. I couldn't say anything other than hey back after that...I seriously need to start dating or mingling more because I can't keep acting the fool, trippin' over what some guys say...its not really some guys-ITS JUST THIS GUY!

So i told my friend how i felt and how it couldn't be and she led me toward praying for him..you know for him to succeed in his endeavors and to become the man he is meant to be and to just persevere no matter what hardships he may face. I prayed for him after dinner...then i looked at my journal tonight and there it was, pray for your hubby. IS THIS A SIGN?

Lessons from July

In the last few months, I have learnt: (NB:YOU=ME not anybody's toolkit just one i need to remind myself about)

Choose wisely what you pursue because it will determine your character. Choose wisely how you pursue it, that reflects your personality.

Perseverance produces character...Perseverance can just mean continuance in prayer. Battles/wars can be won on your knees.

Falling in love involves a lot of self control and wisdom. I am pretty sure that it is possible to disengage the lust gear before it is too late. if you find you are falling, use WISDOM as your landing gear. You always know better.

God knows you better so He should tell you what to do...

Habits can be broken.

One must desist from insisting that they are entitled to something.

Asking/Requesting produces humility, absolutely refines the character, demanding on the other hand....well

Wrestling and waiting for His blessing, for His hand to open strengthens one's resolve and faith. Its almost silly to give up when you know that He has heard every cry and seen every tear you have shed then to just walk away in hopelessness/defeat is 'like a kick in His teeth'. Why ask God for anything if you do not Expect it? He most certainly answers fervent prayers from earnest/righteous persons.

Why bother pursuing Plan B if you are praying for Plan A? Faith is like putting your eggs in one basket. Then asking God to carry it....His hands are rock steady. What may seem like your everything crashing down could just be Him spring cleaning...

Align your will to God's so you know what to ask for, or pursue or say or enjoy...

By engaging in conversation with Him from the OT through to the NT, He is constantly revealing Himself...His mercy, His humor, His love, His grace, His plan...

He says knock and it will be opened. He knows to give better gifts than our own earthly fathers so Trust Him when you seek Him. Trust Him when You ask Him.

Remember His will is Perfect. Ask for His will to be done. It is a sure thing!

There may be pain/breakups/tremendous soulshaking changes but it is designed in a way that you will rise from the pits and be prosperous. Have faith in your Almighty Father.

Never stop loving or believing that He has begun His work in you and He will as sure as day finish it! Your desire, dreams, ideas are by His design-now if you only let Him use this tapestry for the purpose for which He created it...WOW!

Have hope. Hope is the cord that keeps one moment attached to the next, much like the umbilical cord from a foetus to the life supply (mother). Hope keeps you close to God.

Faith is a reliable "currency". To speak to God, you have to go by faith that He hears you right? By faith we are saved. Faith is a strong belief. Faith sometimes feels like it has its own bloodstream. In the worst conditions, faith allows you to see past them, gives you strength and draws out a path along which you can reach a good place. It is important that your faith be full ALWAYS! Feed it. Don't inflate it when you know you feel like your hanging from a string or its waning. Nourish it with verses, prayers, stories from your past/others' stories. Ask God to add on to it that you may be encouraged in all things...Faith really is the substance of things hoped for! This faith is in the Lord who never fails..like how the USD used to be-a reliable medium of exchange. If you go to God with faith, well, just remember the woman who bled for 12 years. Her faith saved her when she touched Jesus' garment. Faith is a powerful currency.

Fasting focuses your mind on God. It allows you to feel weak in the flesh and feed your appetite spiritually. How we should be everyday really..knowing our weakness and strengthening ourselves with the Word.

Remember that we are all unique. Give place to respect rather than gossip.

Feel free not to judge. We are, after all, different.

Say Sorry.