Background is that the TV stole my soul yesterday. All the
damned pieces I had just recovered from the other soul stealer that was grief.
I watched seven hours of it after a hard day at work. I allowed my subconscious
to float through one show where a woman was watching her husband take a second
wife. I watched her as she tried to hide her sense of loss so she could
celebrate with him. Then I watched another man plant a seed of betrayal in
another man’s marriage. I watched a man who was literally prepared to sell his
father out for a prostitute. In my relentless
desire to continue my fall down the rabbit-hole; I found another show where a
kid manipulates her entire family into believing she had unintentionally killed
her half-brother. Oh let’s not even talk about the drama where an innocent man
is framed and has to enter a guilty plea in order to serve a shorter sentence
for something he has not done. I watched a family make money off of their
beauty and scandalous lifestyles and twins who tried to kill themselves decades after their father had successfully done the same thing.
Then I couldn’t fall asleep for ages wondering what the
world, my world had become. And wondering even more, how on earth they had got
me to sit there and be their primetime audience? How did I give away those
hours of my life that I will never get back to people who will never know my
name but know me as a statistic? How did they do it? Because I let them. Yes
they have been marketing these things since I was a wee thing in my mother’s
fallopian tubes and my father’s testes.
I willingly opened the door to them by letting that little
black box into my home and switching it on to serve my seemingly vapid life. Or
so I thought. It seems I constantly have to remind myself that I am more than
nothing and my life is full of more than nothingness due to all the marketing
that is designed to make me believe I am nothing without that something on the
shelves. So if I could just live my life in such a way that if I put it on film
at the end of every single day-I would definitely be entertained and proud of who
I am. I GAVE a part of my soul to the
producers, executive producers, and directors of other people’s lives yesterday.
But not today. Today I claim back what the Chinese stock
exchange seems to be losing and what the European Union claims to be
overwhelmed by-potential investors (in the latter case, they are in the form of
‘migrants’. I mean, if given the necessary tools, a refugee can be turned from
a potential burden into an investor in any country but hey…). Potential investors
in myself, in my being, in my business, in my career, in my life….
When you think you have nothing-you have nothing to work
with. You have no inputs and therefore can expect no output from your efforts.
But effort is an input that we all possess. As humans, we all have the gift of
TRYING. And you are guaranteed something, anything out of those efforts but the
key thing is to not be distracted from making the effort i.e. from implementing
the TRYING strategy.
I have noticed that any time I am distracted from my
portfolio and the instruments that serve me well, my stock falls-soulstock,
esteemstock, intelligencestock etc. And then I will need to regulate them again
by increasing interest rates-it’s all time and energy consuming really-trying
to increase the compliments for a job well done+capturing your lover’s focus on
you all the time+still being the coolest mommy and employer EVER+ being a
wonderful BFF + generally being a ‘cool kid’… The level of difficulty in increasing energy levels
has fallen obviously due to the easily accessible coffee that stimulates you
within five minutes. Even though energy levels are more easily manipulated- the
soul still requires more mechanisms to reach equilibrium and ‘aint nobody got
time for that’. Once that curve moves away from the equilibrium-contentment-it’s
quite hard to get it back because so many factors are involved.
So long story short; on my production possibility curve I am
going to reduce the time allocated to soul stealing TV shows and increase time
improving other lifestyle variables such as my health with focus on inputs such
as prayer, exercise, hobbies, rest, career, wifey and mommy tings alike.
Nothing was stolen here. It’s just free market forces in
play. Not to knock capitalism but some control measures need to be in place. I
mean this girl can float but there really is no good reason to depreciate my
currency at this time in my life. It should be on the up and up really. So
excuse me while I go and court the right investors…..
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the
renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's
will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12.2
that, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old
self, which is being corrupted in accordance with the lusts of deceit, and that
you be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and put on the new self, which in
the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the
truth.…Ephesians 4. 22-24
