My Pretty Big Deal

I get baptized today...I am so excited and humbled that I have been given this opportunity to declare that I am the Lord's and He is mine. He has imparted His Holy Spirit to me, given me His Son to save me and adopted me so that I will live in His courts for eternity. I have to say a little something tomorrow but I can't fathom what kind of words can express the feat that I have just overcome. After 5 years, 1792 days, I officially ''publicly''  change my relationship status to God's. I get to say I do to You. The only constant, honest, loving Being. What has taken me so long? My last name is now Out-of-this-world/waShe/God's. Goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life. From victory unto victory...I will triumph. And I will begin to walk in the ministry with a new confidence. Something happened to me today that emphasized that this here is about God and I. He will use this occasion to serve His will. I know its a testimony of my salvation; my defense and evidence against the enemy; the overcoming of my flesh (because my flesh was so against this and reasoned against it but God won!). Although, its testament of a personal relationship with God, its also a declaration that I am a member of the Body of Christ where He is the head and the devil is under our feet. My induction into the Public Office, if you like, as God's servant. Yes today I resign and God presides. I am in His jurisdiction now...

Thank you Father for vindicating me, for fighting for me through all my shenanigans, for carrying me through rough storms and allowing me to walk across waters. You are my Rock! You are my Provider! You are the Lover of my Soul! You are my Friend! You are Grace! You are Mercy! You are Peace! You are Joy!You are God!!! And you are mine! I am yours! Keep me focused on Your beautiful face..in all things and at all times. Holy Spirit, continue to reveal my Father to me. Thank you for letting me share this day with my lovely and blessed niece. Thank you for rearing her up as Yours. Lord, I glorify you for opening her eyes at such an early age. Thank you that her parents were faithful to introduce  her to You  at an early age and she obeyed Your calling. This is surely the day that you have made. I will rejoice and be glad in it. In Jesus' name, I have the privilege to say Amen! 


Back into Time....

One day...

by Me on Wednesday, June 25, 2008 at 3:26pm
One day, the shackles will come off our feet, and we will be free. We will see the years that were our prisonguards, keeping our hope, faith and freedom at bay. we will finally look at the presidents and the militias who once stood solid as prison bars, and see them fall away and behind us like a bad memory should. And we will heal: our land and our people will heal and stand stronger and firmer and united. In this darkness, we will keep His word as the lamp and light for our feet. Our faith sees our destination even when our eyes are filled with tears and our bones are weak, with grief. Our hope will march ahead of this era and take us where our enemies enemy will lay beneath us. Only this faith and this hope can bring us the strength and joy of tomorrow so our bodies do not tire as they trudge on the path He has ordained for us. Our minds are already free and celebrating because our faith sees past your time and your regime of wickedness, oppression and such cruelty. Yes, I am free because I am not ashamed to hope. I dare to!


Wait till you see my smile.....

I am as surprised as the next person when I smile during adversity or a rather difficult time. It is almost too hard to believe that the Holy Spirit stands in for me and breathes, laughs and smiles for me. Absolutely unbelievable really! In that time, each heartbeat is in sync with  my newfound joyful emotions, reflecting this joy that I didn't even know was there. And then it stirs up this motion, this attitude, and this overwhelming desire to embrace life and its people and bask in their joy or at least to give them a hand up to experience this Jesus-filled realm of love, peace and happiness. When the Spirit smiles, its more than 1000 watts, its beyond ear to ear- its the head-to-toe, from space to the inner core kind of smile. Its a soul awakening! Yes, the Joy of the Lord hath strengthened me so that I may smile.

Struggling to stay focused today...because of yesterday. I should be even more focused for today is the day I have been preparing for-->the day when I would be emotionally vulnerable, the day after letting my guard down (although it should have never come to this I think). The day when I would have needed someone to comfort me, to ring me, to check on me but I would have been so emotionally prepared and would get past needing all that. This is the day when I would need to call only the Lord and not on man but it feels like I don't even know what to say when I call Him, it feels like I left myself somewhere hanging to dry. This is the day I would have picked up my Bible and cast insignificant thoughts aside.  This is the day when I would tell my thoughts to obey me(I should have been telling them to obey God)instead of condemning me....But I find that this is the day when I am reduced, yet elevated; sinking and rising all at the same and all of me is crying or even singing from this twister of emotions ABBA FATHER!
I don't know what I am doing right now, I can't fully understand these emotions, I can't tell if they should go or stay, IS THIS YOU? HAVE YOU PUT THIS ON MY HEART? IF SO, HOW IS THIS EVEN GOING TO WORK? ARE YOU SERIOUS? AM I SERIOUS? DO I START REGRETTING OR DO I CONTINUE HOPING...perhaps that's it, should I be regretting it or should I continue hoping 18/11/2010!

The Reminder: Romans 8.22-39
 For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now.And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body.For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for?But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren. Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?Who shall lay any thing to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth.Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.


Who Am I?

Mark 4:14-20The farmer sows the word.  

Some people are like seed along the path, where the word is sown. As soon as they hear it, Satan comes and takes away the word that was sown in them.  From my experience, satan came like a thief and snatched away the word from me just like that (sometimes with force and sometimes sneakingly). And you may not realise it until you have walked a distance that you never actually got the chance to meditate on the word that you heard. You can't remember the words which should have given you comfort when you were troubled; you can't remember the hymns that you had just sung to praise God with...Or sometimes, Satan comes in a way that shakes you vigorously and like that its gone! He can can come as a sneaky thought and remind you of a circumstance and say ''pssh that word won't do nothing for your circumstance haha'', and so you let the word go. Satan can even come in the form of someone who contradicts the word and doesn't encourage you to be obedient to it but ridicules it in your face. Before you get home after hearing the word, it will feel like you had never left and nothing has changed. 
Others, like seed sown on rocky places, hear the word and at once receive it with joy.  But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away.  Its extremely exciting to hear positive and uplifting words from the Bible, it is great when they speak of prosperity and rewards and eternity..WOW! What happens when you leave the church and you are no longer 'just a hearer' of the word but you must become 'a doer of the word'. All that preaching about Daniel (in the lion's den) or Abednego (thrown in the fire) and Jesus (whipped, beaten and on the cross), now you have to live like one prepared to go through the fire using the Word for your protection. AAAAAH!!! Hence the falling away and adhering to quick fixes~ going along with the crowd and not standing firm in God's promises on your life because you don't want to appear foolish or too Jesus-centric.

Still others, like seed sown among thorns, hear the word;  but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful. It is so difficult to act like you are living in a bubble where nothing can attack you or entice you---> but its harder when you aren't acting and you absolutely believe that God is fighting all your battles, all that you have belongs to Him because temptation manifests itself in many ways and almost diminishes your resolve to hold on to the word....it becomes too difficult to believe when your heart and mind are burdened with worries; or you can suddenly afford all these things that seem to ease your strife so why not pursue them rather than tithing or getting up every morning.....

Others, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop—some thirty, some sixty, some a hundred times what was sown.”Wouldn't it be nice...

Mark 4:14-20


In Awe of You

Lord, I can't believe I wake up and love You..need You all throughout my day, nag You even, sulk by You, listen to You, pray to You, speak to You, talk about You, and now I am about to lay me down to sleep, I love You still. But I do believe it. You are the author and finisher of my faith, the Alpha and Omega....I think for the first time in never-ever land, I may just be on the verge of being consistent. I am so happy. Who can wash me clean except You. And would have  made me new instead of merely recycling me? Only You. Help me to win this race Father. I love You, I need You.


Isaiah and Luke

Today I learned to speak these verses into my circumstances: the good; the bad and the ugly!

Isaiah 43:18-19

Do not remember the former things, Nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing, Now it shall spring forth;  Shall you not know it?  I will even make a road in the wilderness And rivers in the desert. 

Luke 1:45

Blessed is she who believed, for there will be a fulfillment of those things which were told her from the Lord.